So I’ve gotten to the point where I’m starting to feel like I’m about to settle down some.
Going to the UK was one of the best things I’ve done, but it’s been one of the hardest periods of my life.
I made a choice to go for my well being, and I got an opportunity to do some serious deep work on myself, but it was hard. I spiritually grew and I didn’t even know it, didn’t even really realise it was happening. It’s only now when I look back, that I realise I did it.
More… I was kind of disappointed that I left with little money, and that the father of my child turned out to be such a disappointment, but you know what?
I am having a baby… I feel so good about becoming a mother (never mind the vomiting, dizziness and fatigue). I think that getting pregnant and having this baby is what I went to England to do.
Now, it’s like I’m realising the only important thing to me is to make sure the baby is healthy, that I am healthy… that the baby is happy when it’s born.
This to me is what looking after my physical and mental wellbeing means to me right now.
I came home because that was what was best for me right now. It’s not without it’s challenges, but I know I did the right thing for the baby and for me.
I dunno… I feel different for the first time in something like ten years. Do you reckon it’s the baby doing it to me?