Yesterday, in a desperate way for money, and being staked out waiting for RBTT to clear my salary. I did my research tough.
I’ve spent the two months or so — since this whole ‘under attack’ thing became a critical issue — studying. I mean, I’m a book slut. I won’t lie. My whole life has been about books and writing. Those are two constants in my world.
So I’ve been learning about “Defense Against The Dark Arts”. I suspect I am going to be a solitary witch all my life, but I feel another teacher around the corner. I see all people as my teachers, but elders… people with secrets… they are the people that show you portals, tell you where and when to walk through the door.
I think of what I am doing now, is preparing for the arrival of a new teacher. Sucking in knowledge, swallowing it down, experimenting, all these things, incorporating all I’ve already learned so I so that when I meet my next teacher…. there is a rich field for discourse.
So here’s the thing…. I went through all these books working on rituals that I can use to focus my intentions and draw what I need to me, and I am going to start working these things slowly. I am going into a deep period of learning. My prayers for knowledge and strength are being answered. I’ve been going slowly. I’ve been reading and rereading, bought back and revisiting books, built a list.
This is part of what I am sure will become an evolving toolkit.
I have begun the to work on getting myself to a place where, abundance is such a part of my life, and not just in material ways, that to give and give generously to all who come to me, is something that I can do. I’ll be able to do it for myself, and show other people how to do it for themselves.
So today, I took my list down to Julia Star and went to a herb shop, and here’s the list:
- 1 vial Dove’s Blood Ink
- 1 vial Dragon’s Blood Ink
- 1 1/4 bag of frankincense.
- 1 packet Fast Luck powder.
- 1 packet Attraction powder.
- 2 packet Wealthy Way powder.
- 1 packet Come To Me powder
- 2 packets sandalwood incense.
- 3 packets 7 African Powers incense.
- 1 packet Peace powder.
- 2 sticks of charcoal.
- 1 quill.
- 2 pieces of parchment paper.
I had a vial of High John the Conqueror at home, as well as a vial of Jinx remover from last year.
Today I also got one of the two tarot decks in RIK, and a copy of Finding Soul on The Road To Orisa, by Tobe Melora Correal, as well as another book by Anna Riva, Voodoo Handbook of Cult Secrets from in at Ayoka’s in Green Corner. It’s a glossary of terms, and it’s a system I am unfamiliar with, but it’s interesting to read. Also, in my reading of several books I find things are references and terms used, that are somewhat explained or repeated in this slim little volume. So for that reason it is interesting, but I’ll probably get rid of that one for sure.
As for the other work…. the rituals and talismanic work I am going to work on now, I’m ready to start.
Tomorrow, I’m supposed to go back to get 21 candles. I also did a little math. I’m thinking I won’t be able to keep 21 candles burning and leave on July 1. I won’t be able to go until the end of August. I’m a little torn about this. Should I wait and burn the candles when I get to England? Should I burn as many as I can, and go… then pick up again when I get up there, sticking to my original deadline? Not sure what to do about that one. I feel silly, because I should have started that candle ritual back when I first came back from Barbados and seeing Astra. I knew it, and didn’t do it. I was waiting until I got the last bath before I started, but I should have been doing it.
I blamed it on my brother and his entourage being here. At least, it’s part of it. I’ve been kind of waiting until after the baths, and just absorbing and soaking in, rather than doing any work or making any offerings during that time.
However, with less than a week since the last bath, I recognise now is the time for action. So what does that say to me? I still can’t decide. I guess I need to sleep on it and make a choice. Listen to my intuition, and if still no answer I will seek the Oracle with respect and humility and ask for guidance.
I am in a marvellous mood. I feel pretty good. Better than I have in years. Tonight when I came home, I took my first salt, lavender and rosemary bath.
I boiled some rosemary into a tea. Strained the the leaves out. Filled a tub warm water, sprinkled some regular salt into it, then the rosemary tea. I then put in some lavender oil, and opened a bar of Black Soap, and took a bath before I did anything else. I feel pretty god as I type, and I am going back to my reading.
Tomorrow, I think I’m going to get up early and clean as much of the house as I can. I’ve decided not to have that girl come a clean the apartment again. I don’t think she did a particularly good job, but both times I really couldn’t supervise her as I should.
In any case, I’m conserving money as much as I can, so that’s out. After I clean the apartment, it’s my intention to smoke out my apartment again. I bought a whole set of sage for the purpose. I would have liked to try cedar, but the herb shop I went to didn’t have any.
After that, I’m going to dismantle my ancestral shrine and rebuild it again. I really need to feed my ancestors. I haven’t done it in about three weeks. That’s a long time!
I’m just feeling a good place right now.
I am thinking about getting up before the sunshine for a week, and just take some of these salt baths. I suspect it will put me in an even better frame of mind.