Last Friday night, I went out liming with my friends. It was the padawan’s birthday so I drank a Smirnoff Ice (sneaky fuckers) and went home, drank another and sat with myself, my TV and journalspace and mulled over the last couple of weeks… hell, I mulled over the last couple of years.
The next day, Saturday, my padawan and her man, SD, JPR, SW and God knows who else were due to turn up. A little hung over from the two Smirnoff Ice’s the night before, I slept away most of the Morning. SW called first to say he was on his way up, I told him what taxis to catch and went back to sleep. He woke me up when he got outside, and I struggled into a house dress and let him in.
Soon, one by one, the rest of the little clique came over, and in no time at all, we were drinking, smoking, talking shit and just hanging out.
It was fun… it was the first time I’d had friends over en masse to hang out at my house, and I had a good time.
There was a lot of latent tension between SD and JPR, but you know, I kept telling them to cool out, and eventually they did. It’s a good thing they rocked out at 10.30pm, though, I’m not used to that many people in my space all at once.
I slept like a log for most of Sunday. Doing little, barely moving. My brother called me at 2pm to tell me he was coming up by me. When he tells me that now, I know he’ll hardly show up alone. His step daughter is mostly in tow on these short runs, usually both girls at once. Sunday it was just the youngest. She’s almost four. She’s the cutest thing, really she is, and she and I are so cool with one another. My brother is also really good with her and that is always touching to be around, a nice side of my brother’s life and personality I hardly got to see when I had to see him everyday.
Anyway, they both came and my brother inflicted Bad Boys II on me. What a half witted movie. However, it had a few funny moments, but I thought it was insipid. I slept like a log again after they left.
I have some stuff to write about regarding my spiritual life, that would take me into Monday and today, but the subject touches on deep metaphors and such, and I am still not at resolution phase on a number of things. So I am still mulling over my thoughts on the whole thing.
I can tell you one thing for sure, I don’t think I’m going to be participating in the ile anymore. It’s not the whole situation with the last trip into the mountains. It has more to do with where I am going, where I’ve been and where I am now. I just don’t feel comfortable with the whole situation and don’t think it’s the right thing for me to do.