Sweet Thing and I just had a long conversation in which he told me, “I think in order for me to stay in your life, I’m going to have to give you things that I just don’t think I am prepared to give.”
Did I miss something, a beat, my heart beat, my hearing?
So this means what? Exactly? No more forthcoming information that can throw a light on this situation.
I am heart broken. I had been preparing myself for the worst and as far as I can see, I don’t know how else to interpret that.
It’s fucked up…. I got a promotion today. They gave me the big project! It doesn’t mean more money, but it’s an opportunity to ‘prove myself’. At the very least, it’ll be a while before I get bored again.
I want to write all this down, but all I really want to do is cry, kick and scream?
How can I be at this point again? How can I be here again? Why does this feel so familiar to me?